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12:49 a.m. - 07.24.11 sometimes i imagine running into you on the streets or in a starbucks or on my way to class and my heart stops, my breath catches, my world falls apart for 3 seconds, even just at the thought of it. and then i shake it off and move on. i wonder what i would do, is the part that scares me the most. would my world fall apart? probably not. but would i want to hug you, kiss you, hold you? love you? would i even recognize you? would i want to hurt you? or run away? or ignore you? would our conversation be halted, stilted, fake how-are-yous and take-cares and keep-in-touches? what if you were on the arm of someone else? what if you're not?
i'm not nice enough to wish you the best and happiness. but i do know that you'll be okay without me. and i'm okay with that now. i love you but i never want to see you again. � |